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Reflections from Deepa Narayan

This article by Deepa Narayan originally appeared on http://www.emotionalbodyenlightenment.com/

The body as soul wisdom is not a new idea. In the age of rationality, we have just forgotten the body except when we make resolutions to lose weight, fall ill or when we train for athletic excellence. And then it is fuelled by the urge to control and dominate. Our body is our first home. Our souls dwell in our bodies. If this is true, then of course, our bodies will be a font of information, wisdom, knowledge and memories. Most of us, across different cultures are afraid of our bodies and their power. So we try and suppress, repress, abuse, disassociate, run from, bury, hide, or just pretend we don’t have bodies.

Nikhil Chopra a world-renowned visual artist from India recently “performed” in Goa, India at the Sunapanatra Center for the Arts . His art, or installation was his body, naked, except for a white loincloth. He was painted in white. His work was called Rouge; he drew with a 1000 lipsticks, on himself and the white walls around him, for 8 hours. Continue reading Reflections from Deepa Narayan

Meet Deepa Narayan ~ one of 100 most influential global thinkers

Deepa Narayan has been selected by the US based Foreign Policy magazine as one of the 100 most influential global thinkers of 2011.

She is an independent international poverty, gender and development advisor and writer with over 25 years of experience working at the World Bank, the UN, and NGOs. Dr. Narayan spent many years living in village communities in Africa, South and East Asia; this led to her focus on ‘people first’, and local community driven approaches nested in social and political processes.

Her current interests include reducing inequality, shared and sustainable living, making corporate social responsibility a reality, ethical development and economic policies that help create wealth for poor people. She serves on boards of NGOs, participates in think tanks and is a frequent speaker at conferences and retreats. She also conducts experiential workshops on creative leadership for women and youth, such as the one at Hollyhock July 26-31, “Mindfulness & Intimacy for Women“, introduced in the video below.



by Nancy Mortifee

I can still hear my teacher’s voice from across the room…

“The trouble with you, Nancy, is you aren’t sick enough of this behavior to change it. That’s why you’re stuck.”

“Are you serious?” I think to myself, “What are you talking about? Of course I’m sick of it. Look at how I am suffering.”

I’m indignant, defiant and scared. “Take a breath, girl,” I hear another voice say (this one inside my head) “let’s think about this for a sec.” As if watching an old movie, I recall the many other times I brought this same issue into the “circle” and here I am again. My defiance began to melt and it donned on me that I could actually make another choice. Thus began my journey to understanding what it really means to be ready to change.

In my heart I knew that I had made many beneficial changes in my life, shifts that came out of a deep commitment to awakening. Every day I realized the benefit of my personal shadow work. And still, I pulled in my teacher’s words, that before I could affectively change my core defense patterning, I needed to do more than simply be tired of it; I had to be absolutely sick of it. I mean really, really, sick to death of it.

We have all heard Albert Einstein’s definition of insanity, ““Doing the same thing, over and over again, expecting different results.” What I’m talking about here are those most challenging, intractable patterns that over and over again, directly compromise our intimate lives, with ourselves and others.

My friends who have committed to the AA twelve step program, say in order to actually STOP drinking, gambling, over eating, shopping, or whatever, a person needs to hit “rock bottom”. “Bottoming out” might mean you’ve been arrested, lost your job or an intimate relationship, such as your spouse or your kids. Or maybe it comes from doing something that’s just SO embarrassing you can’t live another day with your behavior.

It’s easier to get this when you consider the more dramatic behaviors and certainly some unhealthy patterns are more obviously dangerous than others. But what about behaviors that are subtle, less obvious to others, or are easy to deny in ourselves?

One of my most debilitating defence patterns has been self-abandonment. I have wrestled with this pattern my whole life and the truth is, hardly a day goes by without my “abandoner” showing up. For years, my self abandonment was easy to deny, because it showed up in disguises that society admires. To the external world, the self abandoner may appear selfless, accommodating, easy going or flexible; a really nice person who puts others first. Hmmm… some of that sounds okay.

However, the self-abandoner can also be spineless, afraid of looking bad, wishy-washy and ultimately full of anger and resentment. Left uncared for and uncontained, the self abandoner undermines all intimacy with self and others.

For me, my “bottoming out” was my last divorce and the recognition of the wounding that my dysfunctional relationships had caused my daughters. It was clear that I had only an imaginary sense of self. My, how I suffered, until I finally realized that I was sick enough of this particular behavior pattern to take it on in a serious way.

“So how do you know when you are sick enough”, that’s what my clients often ask. My answer is this: When you get to the point where the pain of holding onto the pattern is greater than the pain of letting it go, you know you’re on the right track.

In my case, I have historically attracted similar painful experiences into my life over and over again, before I have finally got the message. It’s as though the volume increases with each subsequent hit until I eventually reach my denial threshold and finally choose surrender over defiance. Does this sound at all familiar?

Now, it may seem simple, in that it defies logic to hold on to a behavior that hurts us and yet, sadly, applying logic to childish patterning only serves to fuel self judgment. Any fool would know that not speaking up in a dangerous situation leads to hurt and injury, right? But the “fool” in this case is just a scared child who is hungry for someone to look after her, and that someone is me.

So what can we do when we know “enough is enough, already!” Well, the only strategy that has worked for me is to reach out for help. Perhaps there are those rare individuals who can take it on solo, I just don’t know any of them. Friends and family can be huge supporters and yet, sometimes they can unconsciously collude with us, which really isn’t any help at all, in fact often makes it worse.

For me it requires intention, then commitment, follow-though and accountability. It takes a willingness to be vulnerable and to allow my fear, rather than continuing to be defended and defiant.

As you know, I am a big fan of group process; I love the magic that a group brings to the circle and to each individual in it. Bringing the “same old” issue to a gathering of women can help us move through the barriers much faster than letting it stew and keeping us awake at night. Those of you who have been in my women’s groups know how mysteriously the common themes emerge and how magically the work of other women helps us with our own.

If you’re on the fence about exploring this kind of personal work, I invite you to listen to your heart and your belly. If you hear a voice that says, “Alright, enough already!” I’d take it as a good sign to take the leap.

Nancy Mortifee
Nancy Mortifee

Nancy Mortifee is an educator, author and workshop facilitator specializing in women, couples and groups. Through Mortifee Training, she shares her eclectic practice, embracing elements of emotional body work, cognitive based therapies and gestalt. “Through sensitive and gentle exploration I help women chip away at some of the defense patterns and life limiting attitudes that keep them from fully expressing who they are.”


Fuel Passion and Creativity

by Nancy Mortifee

Mindfulness and Intimacy for Women

Connecting deeply with self and others

How do we cultivate and sustain fulfilling intimate relationships? True intimacy with another begins with caring for one’s self, something many of us lose sight of when we’re busy parenting children, building our careers, engaging in new romance or dealing with divorce, grief or loss. Mindfulness practice offers us the opportunity for deep listening.. “Who am I and what do I want?”. Intimacy training gives us tools to reclaim self and build a greater capacity for relationship.

In the context of confidential circles in a retreat setting, my work is to guide women who are exploring issues that challenge us to stay present and fulfilled in our ever changing lives. Through personal one-on-one sessions, group processes and periods of personal reflection, participants learn effective techniques for cleanly expressing and receiving authentic emotions without blame or judgment. Emotional expression is fuel for our passion and creativity when we rediscover the joy of being fully present, whether we’re feeling excitement, anger, joy, fear or sadness.

Body awareness meditation, voice, movement and storytelling are valuable techniques that affirm our spiritual nature, allowing connection to a deeper knowing. From this place we can awaken to our unconscious patterning, learn to let go of behaviors that no longer serve us and cultivate a more intimate life.

I invite you to explore my site to learn more about the work I do, both through residential retreats and personal or couple sessions. In 2013 there are exciting opportunities for us to work together on the beautiful island of Cortes at Hollyhock, in the majestic B.C. Kootenays at Johnson’s Landing, and new for 2013, the stunning cliffs of Big Sur at Esalen Institute.

with love and gratitude,



Deepa Narayan has a PhD in Human Development, specializing in cross-cultural psychology. She has 30 years experience in research and facilitating workshops around the world to empower women, men and youth.   She now focuses on more intimate circles. She has won many leadership awards and published over 15 books on empowerment of self and poverty.





Nancy Mortifee is an educator, author and workshop facilitator specializing in women, couples and groups. Through Mortifee Training, she shares her eclectic practice, embracing elements of emotional body work, cognitive based therapies and gestalt.  “Through sensitive and gentle exploration I help women chip away at some of the defense patterns and life limiting attitudes that keep them from fully expressing who they are.” mortifeetraining.com



Join Nancy and Deepa for their program, Mindfulness and Intimacy for Women, at Hollyhock on Cortes, July 26 – 31, 2013